I still miss her although she had left from me. Every night when I finished my work, I have noting to do, online or stay alone in my tiny room. I love cigarettes. Besides wines, cigarettes becomes my another good companion. I came back to with cigarettes after quitting smoke for five years.
Every morning when I come to my firm, the first thing is to open the computer and enter into the Lord of The Rings with Lord of The Rings Online Power Leveling, to focus on everything about her. The pressure come from the daily life has already made me feel tired, but I still cannot sleep at midnight, I cannot help missing her.
She kept playing the game to find her happiness and sweetness. She said that our separation is for our own sake. I do not understand even now. Maybe I may understand her in the future. Bu it is a affliction to me now. And she, she is free now. She is relaxed without me. She said that she want to leave quietly. I do not believe because she likes dreaming. She cannot bear the loneliness by herself. She needs a companion, but it is not me.
After her left, I am not happy. I lost myself. But the past time cannot come back. I just enter into the game to buy a lot of LOTRO Power Leveling and then win a lot of gold to relieve my complainment. I want to indulge in the virtual world.
I kept smoking in my tiny room. I know in the smoke I may blind my eyes and to find my life back. There is another girl still care about me when I was in such a terrible condition. Maybe I should accept her. She is not beautiful but so pretty. She is not proud but so considerate. If I cannot choose a girl I loved, then maybe I can choose the girl who loves me. Be loved is easy then to love.
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